of course drugs, that explains it all

first of all- i dont do drugs, i may know people who do, but i myself me does not do drugs period. i dont even drink. however reading a book while sitting on pillows in my closet must mean i do drugs and warranted the bedroom search by my father who insists i am sitting in my closet smoking pot.
really? strange behavior automatically means drugs? that is ridiculous. because i enjoy hiding in my private closet to read write type burn incense and relax, i must be doing drugs.
living under the parents roof whilst trying to be an adult is not easy. how can you act adult when your own family denies to even see the adult you? ok well i manage to be adult fairly well, but my dad insists i must be a fuck up immature worthless brat that he has to allow live under his roof because of the damned genetics. i wish i were exaggerating. im sure anyone reading this thinks im an over reacting idiot, but fact is i have taken care of myself my belongings my pets, on my own. i pay my way, i get good grades, never get into trouble, yet im the child dad doesnt want.
he has his new wife and new kids and does not want me in his life. it has been made clear once this falls term starts, im gone. i am to live in the dorm, i may have small storage space at dads new house but i am not welcomed to live there. where will i go for breaks? moms? she lives 10 hours away and i have no car [sold it to pay for school partially this fall] my life is way to stressful. feeling like i have no home and basically no support system is driving me mad. this rant is ..well... yes rather childish but i need to figure out how to completly support myself and right now there is no solution. i am kinda freaking out.