new house. old habits. sitting in the new closet. feeling miserable. contemplating making tea...however that requires me to be near them. them is becca and step siblings...along with my own dad. im not sure what to type everything and nothing is on my mind..
i wish i was at moms or moving into the dorm already..cept i dont know if i will like the dorm either.
my loner tendencies seem to hurt everyones feelings and get people pissed off. because i sit around bothering the family im an insultive brat, yeet when i put out effort, i go outside to play frizbee with the kids, becca sneers and complains, when i try to offer help to dad he tells me go away. they wonder why i stay away? then they all complain about me not being around. there just is no win. im so tired of them. they arent family. this is like being trapped in a house full of horrible strangers.
im on a big ol complaining rant arent i? its pointless to complain. it wont change anything, i know that. doesnt even really help me feel better at the moment. but im here in a closet typing. not much else to do. maybe read a book .. i have plenty books. my own library worth just about lol
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